"There is no greater agony than bearing an untold story inside you." ~Maya Angelou
This may sound strange to you, but I’ve made about seven blogs before today.
I love to write and dreamed of being a New York Time’s bestseller, like J.K. Rowling and having my name in history books like Toni Morrison.
I gave up, not because I didn’t think the dream was possible, but because I had no idea what I was doing. I made lists in One Drive with possible blog names, and topics to write about.
I started off writing about my love of anime and Doctor Who, but realized that I wanted to include my other interests, like fashion and books.
I made a website about my struggle to accept and love myself, but I wasn’t ready to share such personal emotions with complete strangers.
Soon, I discovered that I was having more fun coming up with ideas and designing websites than I did writing, so I deleted all my old blogs and decided to take a break.
My freshman year of college was a major culture shock for me, since I went from the diverse, bustling city of Chicago to another city in the Midwest with a population of less than 150,000.
I felt alone and confused, but managed to push past my fears and anxieties, and decided that I wanted to share my stories with the world once again.
I created a page about caring for my body, mind, and soul after my perfectionism took over me and almost pushed me over the edge.
I tried to learn about healthy diets and joined a student-run exercise club. I was so involved on campus that I didn’t have time to keep up with my goal of weekly posts. I no longer needed the blog as an outlet, so I deleted it.
One day, my boss spoke to me about how she wanted to start a student-run blog at my college, and how she thought I’d be perfect for the job. I was too excited to have an excuse to write for fun.
I wrote too many papers and no longer saw writing as a hobby, but a chore. This brought me out of my funk, and I looked through my notes of ideas for blog posts. It was time to work towards my dream again.
I worked on the blog the entire school year and wrote both fiction and non-fiction stories in my free time. I’d like to share that story with you, but it can wait for another day.
I’m now ready to share my stories with the world once again, and hope that you’ll join me on this journey. It took a lot longer than I expected to make it this far, but I’m glad that I made it here.
Hi there, I just wanted to add that these “Reader’s Notebook” posts are unedited versions of what I submitted to my English professor for my final project.
Honestly, I am pretty hard on myself – especially when it comes to writing – so having a record of what I deemed to “acceptable” work will help me hold myself accountable. In this way, I will be able to truly track my progress as a writer.